one of those nights

where everything is suddenly so real. everything is still just as jumbled, but yet its so much more clear. like you can suddenly see all of the details, but you still can't understand them. its just so strange to feel again. love, sadness, depression, happiness, bliss, an overwhelming sense of just being completely helpless. but its amazing to know that you actually have someone. someone who says they are there for you and they mean it. someone who offers you a shoulder and holds you when you cry. after all this time of feeling nothing, its like all of those held back feelings are just crashing down all at once. sometimes it hurts and sometimes the moments are flawless. regardless of whether the feelings are good or bad, its astonishing just to feel. the view is so much different from this standpoint. i can feel the keyboard as i type this. i'm not just doing it just because i happened to wander here. thank you.